Thursday, August 19, 2010

Four Years On....

For weeks I have been wondering if I will blog about today. What it means to me, Mr H, his family and our friends. I have been staring at a blank screen for a while now. I have even closed my laptop down 4 times only to come back in a bid to tell you. How do I begin to tell you all about this day....what it represents, what it means to us and what awful memories come flooding back.

I don't feel strong enough to share and relive that day again. That fateful day where we lost our gorgeous Jamie. That day where our lives were shattered and our hearts were permanently broken. As the years roll on, I feel like my heart gets heavier and heavier with sadness for not only Jamie who had his life stolen from him but also my Mr H and his beautiful family.

I miss you Jamie - every minute of every day. Not a day goes by without me remembering a great memory or mentioning your name. I promise that Baby Moo will know her uncle and speak about him with love and pride. She will know how gorgeous you were and how much you meant to everyone who knew you. She will be told stories about how generous, smart and loving you were and she will never ever forget you. I know that you are watching over her - it feels like she knows who you are already - and it brings a smile to my face thinking that you come to visit her and let her know how much you love her.

I love you Jamie. Today, Tomorrow and Forever.


  1. Oh Han...I wish I could take your pain has only been 4 years so your pain of losing him will still be raw...Have faith in cherishing his memory, live each day knowing that he was a great fella and an excellent brother and son! Big hugs to you and H's Mum, Dad and Sister and EXTRA big hugs for Miss Moo...xoxoxo
    Lub ya guts lady!

  2. Big hugs to you.
    Relish in the warm memory of him.
    What a constant reminder of how truly precious every moment is.
    xx A